The 'D's of my life

Doubt - DOUBT.....self doubt.....a significant, can't get rid of D of my life. Whenever I am faced with something new or challenging, this D raises its ugly head and makes me stop in my tracks. The temptation to not go ahead is strong leading to an inner battle with my self doubts. Thanks to my family and friends who believe in me and my abilities, this D has rarely won. But that does not make the doubts go away or vanish...they always make a reappearance whenever another new or challenging thing comes up....so sadly the doubts are always there ....but I work very hard to make sure that this D does not get a chance to win.

Destiny - I am a big believer in DESTINY. Some things are just meant to be. My first job here in the US was a temporary placement through a recruiting firm. I still remember my client interview for this first job. As I walked into the room, I was greeted by the controller of the company who was to be my interviewer. At the end of the interview she asked me when I could start the job. Within a few months the company decided that they wanted to hire me and I was offered a permanent position with them which I took. My interviewer became my boss and also a close friend. When she changed jobs, she recommended me for a position in another department within her new company. I interviewed there and got the job. When my son was born, I decided to leave my full time job. I was offered a work from home position for the company and many years later today I still work for them from home. It was destiny which took me to that room for my very first interview with my ex-boss who today is one of my closest friends....my son calls her Aunt and her husband is uncle to him. Destiny....some things are just meant to be. When I look back at my life, there are many such instances where things happened because they were destined.....there really is no other explanation.

Dreams - Not the ones you see with your eyes closed, but the ones you see with your eyes wide open. Lots of DREAMS in my eyes. One childhood dream was to learn the Bharatnatyam....a form of Indian classical dance. In my childhood I was very keen on learning this dance form but circumstances did not allow me to fulfill this dream and it stayed a dream. Recently, I learnt of a dance teacher who teaches Bharatnatyam to adults who have never learnt it before. The once a week classes are held at her home which is very close to my home. Yes, I am starting my Bharatnatyam training this week....yes, as always, the doubts are there...will I do it well, will I be able to learn it....but much much more than doubts there is happiness...at finally being able to translate one dream into reality.

Direction - At any given point of time, I like to know what DIRECTION my life is taking. When things are unclear, it unsettles me, causes me to worry. A friend once made this remark about me.....'For you, there is a place for everything and everything in its place'..I think that summarizes me aptly. If at any point, I feel life has become directionless and is spinning out of control....I try to take a step back to see what needs to be done differently.

Signing off always wanting to keep learning new things so that life never becomes 'Dull' and 'Drab' and this quote by 'Deepak' Chopra

'Whatever relationships you have attracted in your life at this moment, are precisely the ones you need in your life at this moment. There is a hidden meaning behind all events and this hidden meaning is serving your own evolution'.